Yeah, so y'all should totally be my friends!

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Which is why I'm posting to LJ after a how many month long hiatus?

Yup, that makes sense. On the other hand, I literally have nothing to say. Well, okay that's an exaggeration, but whatever. Actually, I do have stuff to say, but I doubt there's any interest at all. Because it's RL shit and my life is just SO INTERESTING. Yeah.
In a sentence; the last two (or however long it's been) months: I lost my job, did some serious quilting and/or shopping, went to Akicon, moved back to Portland, got a job, lost almost all contact with friends as well as all interest in anything, and got into Homestuck.

So, yeah, I moved back home and out of the stress-bomb that is living with my grandma. Which is good, but I also lost my therapist and now have to restart the calling and "sorry, I don't have time for new clients, but let me give you numbers for other therapists." This also means that I have lost the ability to quilt at the moment- the sewing machine is buried under lace and hidden behind boxes currently- and to be honest, I've lost the interest. I also haven't written anything in, like, forever. I feel so bad and it's really doing a number on my sanity/emotional stability/functioning/everything.

In slightly more cheerful news, Akicon was pretty great. I had such a blast with my Con-bro and I'm so excited to hang out at Sakuracon next year- which, hey, actually happens on my 21st birthday, how awesome is that? I think I still like Sakuracon better, but it was the first time staying with friends in a hotel room instead of driving from my own or a friend's home every day. Admittedly I probably won't stay with them again simply because, really, there's a certain type of nerd that I just don't get and they were that kind of nerd- not quite weeaboo, but they need to realize there is more to life than anime and speaking japanese. Like speaking french and kicking the shit out of people in video games. Because video games are awesome, even if the typical gamer is a male sexist jerk who can't talk to women and needs to shower.
But that's beside the point.

Really though, I kind of just want to vent.
( cue the venting!!! )
So, yeah.
I can't promise I'll post on here with any regularity- because that's a fucking surprise. Life is eating my face and what I'm 99.9999999% positive is med-needing depression keeps me from doing anything with any regularity. I am trying my best and I'm not dead. I hope that's okay.

Why life? Why?

So, I'm moving again. Not immedietly, but in mid October. My bakery job has dwindled to about 3 hours a week and my grandparents are driving me up the proverbial wall- actually, awfully close to the literal wall too. While I'm so glad to be able to be closer to my friends and family again, I'm absolutely dreading job hunting again. I kind of want to cry, I hate job hunting so much.
The only reason I'm putting it off until October- because nothing is getting better here- is because there's a convention in Bellevue WA- Akicon- that I've pre-reged for and am staying in a hotel with friends. Admittedly, I'm super excited about the con, I think it'll be fabulous- or I hope it will be. I might even get to see my con-bro! :D Also, I totes have a hockey stick for Canada now and it's totally bad ass and like, a foot and a half long. I still have to fix my Belarus cosplay, but I think I can do that easy-peasey. Still, I should probably do that. I think I'm going with Russia and Prussia? Maybe. Depends on if my Russia brings her cosplay and Prussia actually goes. Super excited. SUPER. EXCITED. :DDDDDDDD

Haha, done being lame. Regardless, I'm sort of dreading packing again, since I have so much shit that is, in no way going to fit in my old bedroom. Some/most will probably stay up in Washington for a while. Dunno. I'm actually a little sad I won't be able to work at this bakery, 'cause I really like it- a lot more than I thought I would. Also, I'm worried about how Jack'll handle the move. Nemo and Leo are both old cats and have lived together all their lives- they're like, 11, 12 years old?- and bringing in YET ANOTHER male cat might not be a good idea. Not to mention Jack's kinda weird about, like, everything. But I don't really want to take him back to the shelter 'cause I love him and he's mine. :( I guess we'll see what happens.

The more I think about moving, the more I feel like I should seriously think about taking my chances in Canada. Which is really ridiculous if you think about it 'cause I know, like, no one in Canada (or, the only people I know is a friend of a friend in Vancouver BC and really distant relatives in Calgary. Not exactly people you drop in on randomly and ask for lodging or whatev.) Still, I really want to visit Canada at the very least and I feel like moving to Oregon is lessening the chances of me ever doing that.

I think the last thing I wanted to share was a new novel idea that I find pretty hilarious-
( Click the cut to see the nerdy novel! )
I think that's it. I hope those of my friends on the east coast are safe.

Yeah, so I'm totally making an ad for my other LJ. I wanted a place where I could show my family my quilting stuff and not have to worry about them poking around and finding the stuff I write. 'Cause, you know, I don't tell a lot of people I talk to regularly about the stuff I write.

So, Obvious Link to journal!!

I'm actually pretty proud of the stuff I've been doing. Obviously, or, you know, I wouldn't have made a special LJ for it, would I?

Sorry I've been so dead- though, I'm pretty sure no one actually reads this. Despite more or less losing my job, I find myself busier and dead-er than ever before. Being unemployed is... well, not hard, but it's not really fun either. I've been doing lots and lots of quilting, so it's sorta taken up a lot of my life.

I dare say this might be my shortest update in, like, ever... Huh.

Okay, that's a lie. Secretly, I'm a zombie. Yes. a zombie. Totally.

Zombie or not, this post had a point. I've been up to stuff lately~ Chatting with my folks, traveling, downloading Gameboy emulators and games (Fuck yeah, Kirby <3,) and generally just being a lazy bum while I wait for work to need me again. Oh, and quilting! I've been quilting.

So, though word of mouth (read as: a link my mom sent me) I found this really cool chenille blanket tutorial (tutorial here~) and decided, hey, I need to make one of those!
And, after spending about $50 in fabric (good god, why is fabric so expensive?! -sobs-) loosing the feeling in my thumb- of which is STILL bruised, thank you, scissors- and impressing my mom with how fast I finished the quilt, I now have a beautiful lap-blanket <3

( Photos of my lovely quilt below! )

Despite the cost, I'm really happy with how it turned out. It's pretty and it's a nice size to drape over my legs while I kick Zerg and Protoss ass. To be honest, though, it would be Protoss and Terran if I was that far along. I want a little zergling pet <3 it would be so cute! Might eat my face, but it would be cute~

Ah, I finally got around to re-writing and typing up "Arthur, Arthur, Arthur." I'm much more proud of this one, though I'm still a little hesitant to put it up. Still, I said I would and I'll keep my promise (even if I only made it to myself.) I still like the idea behind the original, but now I see how it could be really annoying to read. I also discovered I'm shit at coming up with titles, so, you know, if anyone has any ideas, I'm like, so ready to toss the ones I've got... Seriously.

Title: Fanfic formerly known as "Arthur, Arthur, Arthur,"
Author: Aquashadow13
Rating: PG, man, all the way.
Pairing(s): USUK
Genre: Angsty/fluffy/AU
Summary: Not even getting totally smashed could take away the sting of loneliness when Arthur disappears from his and Alfred's apartment.
Word Count: 1964

( It had been nearly a month since he had heard from Arthur... )

Going to my brother's graduation was super freaky. For one thing; my brother has graduated! I mean, seriously? That's freaky in-and-of itself. I think I'll always think of him as the brother who's perpetually shorter than me. He's not anymore, but, you know, I guess I can be okay with that.
Secondly: it really drove home just how much I miss Oregon. Yeah, anything over 80 sucks, and Oregon does get higher than that every year, but, I mean, that's part of the fun. I feel like it's greener here. It's probably not, but it's a different type of green than Washington. Not to mention I'll always be an Oregonian, no matter how far away I move.
It's really hard to go to events like graduation and see all the people I knew and not want to say fuck work and come back home. Every time I bring it up, though, I get the same "well, you wouldn't see them any more if you lived here than now," BS, but you know that's not really the point. Yeah, I might not see them, but I wouldn't have to plan weeks in advanced when I want to hang out with friends. I think it's more the possibility versus actually visiting.

One of the things I do regret about graduation is not going to see my favorite teachers. I got to see my director, but both my english teachers I missed :( -sigh- oh well, I suppose that's how life goes. I might see them later, who knows.
It definitely made me re-think my own graduation, though. A lot of what I remember from graduation- aside from the mass amounts of people and how bizarre the entire day felt- was how much resentment I still had for my high school. I remember hearing all my classmates reminiscing about fond memories and good times and only thinking how much I was glad to get away from my choir teacher and that I couldn't stand the vast majority of my class. I was so happy to be getting away from everyone since I could only reminisce about the bad things that had happened during high school.
But it's different now. I don't want to remember the bad things. I want to remember things like hanging out with my mom and director all night during Grad Night. I want to remember the fun of being terrified and dragged to the tallest slide in the Great Wolf Lodge at our Senior Trip. Things like staying up until midnight painting the flats for May Day by myself, rocking out to my anime music. Like actually enjoying my classmates as we decorated the halls. Things like Ashland trips, plays, the entirety of Creative Writing. I want to remember the brilliant freaks that my friends and I were.
Either way, Graduation this year was bizarre and it made me think. A lot.

And I guess, since I'm being totally honest, I felt kind of vindictively happy that my ex was avoiding me. Does that make me a bad person? Perhaps.

I totally got my Canucks jersey~

I'm wearing it right now.

I'm so happy <3

-joy-


Go 'Nucks~

Man, I'm starting to lose it for witty, catchy title things. Bah, all the same, it's true: I've finally got more quilting pictures~

To start off, I got my Pizza box back tonight (well, yesterday, technically, but whatev) as well as my friendship blocks! Yay! -cheers-

Ah, this is gonna be seriously picture heavy, soooo...

( Hey, lookit me, I'm a cut! I've got pictures below me! Woooo!! )

ISN'T IT?!
Okay, no it's not, but I forgot a question, and it's not relevant at all to the previous post.

So it get's it's own special post!!! XD

-is shot-

But seriously.
I have a question, which is more a question my friend and I were wondering last night at like, god-awful-in-the-morning.
( It's about a picture, so it's all going beneath the cut. Oh, and there's lots of cursing, so if that bothers you... Don't worry about my questions. )

Oh, and I'm working on my novel quite a bit lately, as well as a... longer, non-annoying version of the "Arthur, Arthur, Arthur." thing I had posted a couple things down. It actually has plot and I rather like where it's going... I just... worry. About whether anyone would read it... >.> I'm kind of hesitant to post any of my writing up again after the... not good reaction I got. Actually, I'm really embarrassed.

Anyway, my silly fears and insecurities.
I'm still writing, for sure, I just... don't know where anything is going to go yet.
Bah, rambling.